Twin Breeze

Day: October 8/10

Eating: drinking a cup of tea

Listening To: Dance Inside by The All-American Rejects

Mood: probably none - just floating around in the clouds

Oh. My. GOD. I swear school is gonna kill me. So much to do, so little time. Or is it just me being so lazy? Either way I'm gonna die if I keep going at this pace, qnd it only gets worse in high school. So looks like I gotta pick it up.

I've been terrorized by a handful of people lately and it's beginning to take another tole on me. Sure I like anime and manga, yes I like ball jointed dolls, and yeah I made up a story to one of my friend that I was a 'witch' but that's the way I am - I care about my doll family so much and I just love making up stories like that. So guess what - just go tell someone else that shit, someone who'll actually buy it. Cause here, right now, I'm bulletproof, and you can't get any dirt on me.

Speaking of my doll life, I actually got promoted to Season Spirit of November - Luna! I'm so happy. I actually think that the month of November fits me better than the month of January, which had been my original hope for a rank. Autumn is more of my season, the cool breezes, the medium temperature, crisp appleas and walking in the gentle winds through the park while the leaves brush the path clean of all your footsteps.

Yes, I am the wind blowing life into the world in this month. It's my wings that carry the winds upon them.

I'm ever so grateful the Council and Mi-chama had decided to promote me. Now I'll work harder than ever to continue making the Sanctuary a wonderful place. Being on a Semi-Hiatus is never an excuse.

~M

White Iris

Day: September 14/10

Eating: layered waffer cake

Listening To: The Only Exception by Paramore

Mood: light, free, careless

This little blizzard inside of me is suddenly and surprisingly growing into a pleasant feeling. I never though something that began as something so depressing could turn into something so free, so pleasant. I've been in the midst of many fights lately, most among my friends or those people who aren't in my class but I still look over at, and I've been feeling isolated because of that. I mean my best friend is trying to keep a stalker jerk away from her while another friend of mine is hanging around that same stalker jerk. My crush hasn't been noticing me and rumours have slowly been drifting around about me again. But even amongst this seemingly lonely blizzard I'm feeling safe right now, safely guarded from everything and everyone.

I would give everything though, to see two people, two people I hold dear. One whom I have not yet met, but I feel his presence, that sweet smell that lingers lately, and a gentle breeze that passes by like a hushed voice; the one I am destined to meet. The other is one whom I should have forgotten, but hold dear within me. He is still by my side no matter how often I feel that he has left me, my first ever childish love, a memory that still lingers in my mind. It's these two that seperate my roads and make me wonder of how life will change. Yes there are others who I care about, like my close friend, my crush, and others, classmates of mine, but I can't help but feel ties to these two.

Ah, how twisted life is. But I've met so many wonderful people, especially the dolls, who help me see every day that even when I think that life has taken a turn for the worst, it's not fully dark until I give up on everything. I'm grateful to these people, even though I've said this thousands of times I still feel like I haven't said it enough.

It's one day though that I'll have the strength to stand on my own and let everything sink into me. But until that day comes I'll still rely on those people I know. Becoming a doll has showed me how life could be for me, and I met new people I wouldn't have met on the other side of this globe. My classmates, my friends, even my enemies - who, though I hate, still teach me things - ar blocks of my life. It's like they say, you can't rush to make a jigsaw puzzle until you have all the pieces. I won't rush with mine and take it a step at a time so everything could take it's turn.

'Life's not measured by the number of breaths you take,

but the number of moments that take your breath away'

~M

House of Cards

Day: September 11/10

Eating: cocoa wafer rolls

Listening To: Remedy by Little Boots
Mood: forgotten, curious

Ah, I think I'm beginning to slowly feel better. Not fully of course but just a little bit. How I hate drawing title pages lately though, and just my luck - I have 3 of them to do: one for Geography, another for Science and another for History. I wish I had a sudden slam of an idea hit me so that I could get the whole assignment over with.

On a brighter note.....KH BIRTH BY SLEEP IS OUT FOR ALMOST A WEEK 8D Lol, call me a fan but I'm growing addicted to the series. I really wanna get it - so far it's #1 on my Video Games list which I wanna get. I heard already that it's like no other game from the series and that makes me feel all hyper excited already. Of course, it does cost quite a bit so I gotta save up money...=_=

And I've officially applied to try becoming a Gem in the Sanctuary. Sure gonna be something cause I need an approval from all the current Gems and four of the Doll Council members, but I'm sure I'll be able to do it - as long as I try my best I shouldn't be disappointed because I know I gave it everything I've got.

What else should I mention...? Um, I dunno. I'm looking forward to this grade 8 year though, because of the Me To We, grad board, grad year book, and the Idol Talent Show we're holding. Gotta muster up my courage this year and audition - I think I've found the perfect song to sing. I plan to sing Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri so that means I've gotta perfect it soon since the talent show will most likely be between Christmas and February, and in my opinion winter is the perfect place to hold a talent show. Right now though I wanna enjoy myself a little bit, go listen to some more music and maybe write a little bit of my book.

~M

Waning Paradise

Day: September 3/10 Eating: milk chocolate waffers

Listening To: Hello Seattle by Owl City

Mood: refreshed, hopeful

I've been feeling refreshed from yesterday's facial I got at Yves Rocher. It's a good thing I went to talk to a professional cause all this acne was honestly getting out of hand and my pores were about as clogged as ever. Of course I'm not exactly the type of person to get a facial so I wasn't used to it but it was fun, I'm planning on going there every month or so, maybe a few weeks if my face gets too dirty.

Anyways, DS is closed again for monthly maintanance and this is my last weekend before school. Not exactly looking forward to seeing everyone again but I'm not dieing of horror either. It's just a...meh...neutral feeling I guess. It's gonna be boring most of the time anyways - at least I have some new books to kill some time with there. Plus class orientation is always such a pain since there's a whole number of people I don't wanna be in the same class with.

So this I guess means that starting from Tuesday I'll be going Semi Hiatus, to all the dolls out there. I'll be sure to get online as much as I can since I just can't seem to stay away from everyone, but my school work and application to high school will be taking more time away from me. And since my Doll Family is growing I'll be sure to spend more and more time talking to everyone. Twinnie hasn't been online so much though - I really miss her....

Then I guess I'll be going for now, but expect a post on Monday cause it'll be my final post of the summer and my official thoughts about my whole vacation. I always do it for the past two years - looking over what I've done over the summer, what I hope to do/feel at school, and since I'm graduating next year in June then what I want to do with everyone before I graduate (that includes punishing some naughty boys). But till then, I'm gonna go catch some of the last summer's rays.

~M

A Clover Each Day...

Day: August 12/10  Eating: bowl of cinammon-apple oatmeal

Listening To: Fireflies by Owl City

Mood: a little screwed up..

Okay, so it's probably not a secret that I've been feeling emotionally stressed these past few days. Or maybe some people don't know that...Anyways, to keep things short and sweet, yes, I've been under some difficult times. Not to mention my 'New Post' editor has been acting up on me which is irritating me cause it makes huge gaps between the writing if I wanna create just a small paragraph. If anyone knows how to fix this, this glitch please lemme know - I can't put pictures to the side now like I did normally without running into issues with the spacing. Ugh, why is everything so, so....just forget it.

Ahem, so, I've been asked by a number of people (you probably guess by now who they are): "What have you been doing?" Well, hum, lemme think.......NOTHING. Well, I'll be honest with myself I did some painting, a little reading, mostly listened to music....I've been mostly in the DS lately.

Oh, and, found out my crush has a girlfriend who's 4 years older than him. Yaay, I think I like a total idiot XP. No seriously, everything's taken such a weird turn it's not even funny. I wish I could just be chained into my book and live in there - everything is so much happier there.

Oh and I actually came up with a possible ending for my book - not that bad I gotta admit but not sure if it would be satisfying. I feel like a moron lately! Peoples help me! this isn't normal! ><

Ah, on the other hand, my last Shikyu, Dali the Clockwork Rabbit, should be coming soon, so then you'll get to chat with all five of my Shikyus. Rowanne's been a little happier though I gotta admit, and Whistea is feeling better after her recent little 'depression'. Calliope and Kaleb are okay and happy like normal, though Calli has been fighting hard in the Colliseum. Whistea gave up and Rowanne is only beginning while Calliope is ending her battle very soon. Ah Rowanne, hurry up and fight before the first round ends this week!

Ah, so this is just a short random entry, to file out all my thoughts. Please don't think I'm a nutjob though -I'm truly having a hard time lately, so PICK ON ME AND YOU WILL VERY SURELY REGRET IT? Okies...? ^-^ Don't turn me into an evil little witch cause we both know angry me+you=big fight.

I sure hope me dreams would calm down a little though - I'm beginning to feel a little scared from them....Now I only have my best friend to rely on...TT^TT *glomps her over the distance*

Nighty night, and I'm so lazy these past two days I will try so hard to post a story on my other blog tomorrow!

~M

New Shikyu

Day: August 7/10

Eating: drinking a glass of fizzy lemonade

Listening To: nothing at the moment

Mood: bored and a little dull

Now before I go and begin to talk about my Shikyus I wanna wish my lil bro a happy b-day. His present was a large table with a train set that linked together. He loves it so much. We're gonna go have the cake soon - triple chocolate with extra frosting and biscuit layers. Yum! ^^

Now I had wanted to write this entry before about my new Shikyu but I never got the chance (I was really lazy, and as much as I wanted to blog more often I was still feeling very lazy). Now though that I have the time, lemme introduce to you my new Shikyu and I finally have the time to have a normal conversation with my other three....=.=

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Kaleb: Hello *waves slightly. Nice to meet you all. It's so nice to finally be adopted into such a caring home TT^TT

Rowanne: Yuppie, another softie in the group...

Calliope: *sips her tea*....I for one am happy to finally have a boy Shikyu amongst us....Maybe now we'll have peace and order around....*sighs*

Rowanne: *turns to Calliope* Hey! You're not a holy dandelion yourself!

Whistea: *wakes up from all the comotion caused by Calliope and Rowanne* Twinnie, can't you at least lemme have some sleep on a Saturday? It's bad enough that Riri-san is all sleepy and drowsy but you're argueing right from the start too...

Rowanne: Well accuse that guy of starting it all! ><*

Kaleb: *radiates a dark aura* You do know, that as the duke of the dark court I don't tolerate being accused of something I had no participatio in whatsoever....

Whistea: *shaking a little* Nee Ro, let's not anger him. He's more dark then you. I wonder what part of riri-san's personality he got....O.o

Calliope: *puts the teacup down*....Judging by his words then the cold calm side....Plus her killer instinct....

Whistea: I never knew she had that in her...O.O"

Rowanne: Instinct shminstict. I don't care what that raccoon boy says - he ain't scary at all! XP

Kaleb: *creates a ball of black fire*

Whistea: Um, sis, I suggest you run...

Rowanne: *sees the orb, and begins to run*

Calliope: *waves her hand and summons a venus flytrap that gobbles up Rowanne*...That's the way I roll...^^ *looks at Kaleb*...You can relax now...Tweetle Dumb will be taking some time to get out of there...

Kaleb: *sits down at the table and takes a scone*

Rowanne: *suffocating in the flytrap*

Whistea: Eh...^^"

Me: *walks in* So, are you guys getting along well?

Kaleb: Very ^^ *reaches for a teaspoon and a slice of cake*

Whistea: Ehe....*sweatdrop*

Me: So I guess you're now willing to accept that Kaleb will officially be living with us from now on, and he will not be leaving the family. EVER.

Rowanne: *from inside the flytrap* WHAT!?

Me: Oh come on, it'll be fun Ro *opens up the flytrap*

Kaleb: Yay, so I'm in! ^o^

Rowanne: XP *passes out*

~~~

And so begins the new life of my new Shikyu Kaleb. ^^

Now, if you don't mind, I think I'm gonna go grab a second helping of my brother's birthday cake. Later days! '-~

~M

Naughty Little Angel

Day: July 26/10 Eating: nothing but I'm getting hungry...XP

Listening To: Dirty Little Secret by The All-American Rejects

Mood: sweet yet devilish

Another slow summer day...Ah I'm getting so fed up in these four walls....Not like I have somewhere better to go though, so I guess I'll put up with this for a while longer.

Went to the library today (woohoo!!! d^-^b) and got myself some more books to read so I can kill some more time. Right now, after about 80 pages into Devoured by Amanda Marrone I'm getting interesting in what kinda turn the story will take (hope not a suckish one or else I'll show no mercy and toss the book across the room).

What else happened...? Well, watched some more TV, played with my little brother a little, you know, usual routines. Couldn't be on at the time peak in the Sanctuary cause I was at the library at the time but oh well - can't get everything you want right?

Which also reminds me - read Full Dark's blog today. Happy that Full Dark and I became friends but still worried for her. Why does everyone piss her off so much? Wish I could help her stick em into place. Beh, I'll have to deal with the same things at school in September - too many bakas in my grade....XP

Events have been unraveling rather quickly, I mean the way Full dark is planning to step down from her rank, how Kirin-chan and I have been feeling lonely now a days...it's all too fast. I'm being sucked into the cyber world, fast, and if I don't pull out soon, I think I'll lose myself in it. It's not normal anymore how I'm replacing it with reality.

Meh why is life so complicated? What I'd give to try living in the cyber world for my whole life, to be carefree and not worry about what people think or say, about this stupid thing called money? Why are things so unfair?

.....................After all these questions, I have a sudden urge to let my frustration out.............Now if you'll excuse me................*jumps on her bed and starts punching her pillows* Stupid stupid world! XP

Calliope: ............Please don't mind Riri-san, she's just having another one of her little......'reality swings'..............

Rowanne: She should really rethink visiting a doctor, hehehe ^^

Whistea: *smacks Rowanne on the head with her scepter* Watch what you say - our mistress is just having a tough time, that's all. And you should learn to be more human and sensitive

Ah, my Shikyus.....I can always count on them. ^^

~M

My Dear Shikyus! ^o^

Day: June 26/10 Eating: Belgium milk chocolates

Listening to: Replay by Sean Kingston Mood: excited

I had applied for 3 Shikyus yesterday, and today I had recieved a message from Kyrie-san with their cards. I'm sooo glad to have them now! They are now in a way part of my family, because not only the doll family I'm in but also the Shikyus I own are also family.

Oh, do you know what a 'Shikyu' is? Well, I hope you do, but of course not everyone knows so let me explain.

In the Sanctuary, a Shikyu is a creature that you can adopt which will then become your partner. A Shikyu can be any element and any type of possible creature whether it swims, flies, crawls, slithers or walks. They protect their master, the doll, from anyone who wishes to harm them. In order to be strong like that a Shikyu must be trained, whether in magic, evasion, melee combat or another area. Once trained, a Shikyu can be strong and unbeatable. A doll is allowed to own a maximum of 5 Shikyus, but I currently own 3. I don't think I'll be getting 2 more just to fill the space because my current ones still do need attention. I don't think I'll even need 2 more Shikyus, as I love my current ones so much and want them to do their best in training.

You also might be wondering who my Shikyus are. Well, each Shikyu has a card such as one above and to the right, and one a bit more down that show their pictures and quickly say what element they are and what kind of creature they are, along with their name and their owner's name.

My Shikyus are very mysterious creatures that have fragments of me that were embedded into their creation. They may posess a quality of mine, a trait or something I wish I had like a physical feature. They are the most wonderful Shikyus there are around, and I'm sure they'll get along with all the others.

Now, instead of babbling on and on and on about how wonderful and interesting my Shikyus are, why don't you meet them youself? Yes, it's very easy! Shikyus! Come and greet our visitors, and maybe even talk a bit about yourself while you're here. How about it?

~~~

Calliope: *looks around quietly* Do I have to, Margaryta...?
Me: Yes Calli, I think you should. Everyone's probably curious about you by now. And I told you, stop calling me by my full name! For you I'm Riri, just like for all my fellow Himuro family and all the other dolls I'm Himuro Riri.
Rowanne: Whoever gave you that nickname must have a low IQ...
Me: For your information you can almost say i gave myself that nickname! And just because you're responsible for negative emotions doesn't mean you can't be nice once in a while! Sheesh, you should learn more from Whistea...
Rowanne: That little cream puff!? She's such a little kissup and won't even do anything that could hurt a little fly!
Whistea: You know I heard that Rowanne? *fumbles around with her scepter* And I like my kind attitude - no wonder I rule over positive emotions.
Rowanne: *getting angry*
Calliope: .....*still just standing and watching* Even though you two are sisters, twin sisters, you still argue like two little children.....
Rowanne: What about you!? You're just some lazy flower cat that Margaryta didn't put too much thought into before creating you! Well let's see, you did get her quiet and cold side, but that's about it!
Me: Ro, be quiet for once! *sighs* I put equal thought into each of you when adopting you. Yes Calli did get my quiet and cold side, while you Ro got my fiery temper and mean side while Whist got my gentle and thoughful side, so I wouldn't go about insulting your sisters.
Rowanne: *folds hands across chest and turns away*
Me: And of course you got my pride and boastfulness too...*sighes again* You guys are such a handful you know - just when I thought I'd have a more or less relaxing summer I adopt you three and all of a sudden i feel like I'm raising pets!
Whistea: Well last time I checked pets can't pour tea, can they? *finds a teapot and teacups and begins pouring out tea* That's more helpful than a pet would be.
Me: True dat, true dat.
Calliope: *begins to stretch out* Well, I think if you three are done with the chitchat I'll be going to climb around the garden, stretch out my legs for a bit.
Me: Sure sure Calli, take your time - we're in no super rush. Oh! And while you're out please pick a handful of irises - they're in bloom right now and you know how much I can't resist irises!
Calliope: *nods and walking up to the window jumps out*
Me: *lets out another sigh* Even though you guys can be...trouble...sometimes, you know I still care about you, right?
Rowanne: Yeah yeah, cut the sugary act. I'm an example of how you can be when you're mad. Remember what you did to your crush this passed Thursday...?
Me: HOW DID YOU KNOW WHAT I DID!? YOU DIDN'T EVEN EXIST AT THAT TIME!
Rowanne: Nu uh *shakes head* I know everything - I was created from a fragment of you, wasn't I? And my mad nature is an exact copy of yours so it's like we share genes.
Me: *beginning to bubble over with anger* I see you got some of my boastful knowledge too....
Rowanne: *snickers*
Me: WHY YOU....!!! *begins chasing Rowanne around the table shaking fist*
Rowanne: *runnign away and laughing, making her master more angry*
Whistea: *sits quietly and sips tea*

~~~

My Shikyus:

YOU GOTTA LOVE EM! XD

~M

The Doll Side of Me

Day: June 22/10 Eating: sugar coated strwaberries

Listening To: God is a Girl by Groove Coverage

Mood: content

Today officially marks my day that I became a 'doll'. Yes, Mi-chama has finally accepted me into the Himuro family as a doll. Of course I am still a Newborn but I'll try my best to get along with everyone in our family.

To the right is Petsha, a doll I am using to represent me. She's so pretty, isn't she? Both of us have quite and cold personalities but we warm up whenever our friends or loved ones are around, so we are very similiar. There's another doll I'm using too, but Petsha for me is like the one who is so closely tied to me, like a mirrored image of me.

I can't wait to tell Momo-chan the news - she'll be so happy. Although we applied almost at the same time and became close friends Momo-chan got accepted before me, but was so supportive of me along the way that she'll be jumping for joy when she hears the news! ^^ As for me, I'm also excited. I've hoped to become a doll for quite some time so today, June 22 marks the birth of the doll me.

Now I am getting to talk to other Himuros and feel like part of the family. Things will be fine now: Mi-chama is the bestest Doll Master, so kind and caring and always fun to talk to, while there are many people in the family I have already been friends with that it makes me happy to always be able to talk to them.

Well I can go on and on babbling about this but I don't have the strength to write pages and pages about this. All I can say is - I'm happy and proud to be part of the Sanctuary and to know all the dolls I know.

Ooh, gotta go and tell Momo-chan and Ru-chan about this! Or maybe they already know...?

Well, still gotta run, but I'll be continueing to blog very soon. My doll life has just begun! ^o^

~M