Blackened Abyss

Day: July 31/10

Eating: drinking a glass of iced green tea
Listening To: Starry Waltz by Kukui

Mood: yearning for the stars

Hm, well, what can I say - today is the last day of July, which means I only got a month and a week before school starts again, and frankly, my lack of inspiration for things has been getting me nowhere.

It's been rather dark and dull here these past few days and I haven't been going out much lately because I've been feeling in pain. I feel trapped lately, like a butterfly in a cage, and no matter how hard I want I can't get out.

My favourite mangas haven't been updated yet and I watched all the new episodes of the anime series that I'm currently watching. If anyone knows any good mangas that they could recomend, PLEASE DO SO ASAP, cause frankly, I'm dieing of boredom.

Well, actually that's not fully true, cause I've been rather hooked on watching detective mysteries lately, such as the 60s (I think it's the 1960s...) American TV series Columbo, the russian version of Sherlock Holmes which was shot some odd 30 years ago I think, the American movie Sherlock Holmes with Robert Downy Junior (oh gosh the movie was sooo good....<3),and of course, my personal favourite, the TV series based on the popular books of Agatha Christie, it's Poirot! With them nearby I won't be bored any time soon

Oh, forgot to mention - I think I found a solution to what the connection between jake and Kai is! YAAAAY!!! d^-^b *does a happy dance* And I think this will sort a number of loopholes I've had cause it makes things simpler but at the same time makes the plot more interesting I think and more complex.

So, that's all for now. You'll be hearing from me now in August, but till then, I've got a book to work on, not only cause I wanna try publishing it but also cause a friend of mine today said she really wants to read at least a little bit of it. So for her and for everyone who's anxiously awaiting to find out more bout my book, I'll be trying to continue to write.

Later days! ^-~

~M

Red Demon

Day: July 30, 2010

Eating: nothing but I'm starved.....XP

Listening To: Pictures of You by The Last Goodnight

Mood: Frustrated >o<*

Okay, this is so definately not working out the way I want things to go....So, I've been thinking...if anyone does read my blog, maybe you guys could help a little bit? I'm so seriously stuck on this book but deep inside I want to finish it, so, I think maybe by posting a summary I could reread it and then understand how the questions in my previous posts could be answered. Phew, here goes nothing...

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Basically, the book titles gives a hint to what the story is about. The main protagonist is a girl named Christine Hartes, who is branded as a carefree loner at school but at the same time a smart and talented one too. Her closest friend is a girl named Skye Geraldo, whom she trusts like her own sister, and for some time they have both had a crush on the same guy - Miles Greever. He's popular, funny, and accoarding to Skye totally into Christine. Too bad he makes too many cold jokes to truly show it.

Christine tries to bear with things as best as she can but sudden dreams of two boys begin to haunt her in her sleep, and she begins to sense that maybe paradise isn't so far away after all. It's one normal day that her world finally comes crashing down on her as some boys decide to humiliate in front of everyone. Loosing her cool calm Christine is overwhelmed with rage, yet the emotions give root to a pair of feathered black wings, curled ram's horns, a lion tail and even some claws. It is then that finally she meets Jake, one of the boys she's been having dreams about. Just like her he has wings, though white, and fills her in on her true life, the destiny she was so cruely taken away from.

That doesn't however fit into the plans of a certain someone, as Christine is attacked by the other boy, Kai, also with wings, this time grey, that wishes for her death. It's only after a quick save from Jake that Christine travels through a mirror portal to the world of Reilmore, made up of 3 races: Alphas, the winged race; Halums, the spirit race; and Feruns, the immortal race. Christine is a Hybrid Alpha, since only she has horns and tails, and because of her mix of both worlds she can't stay in one of the world for longer that 3 weeks, now that her true powers have been awakened inside.

Christine continues to go between the two worlds, trying to cope with her life while avoiding close attacks by Kai who continues following in her foot. There is a rule: an inhabitant of Reilmore can only enter the mortal world as long as another inhabitant of Reilmore is already there, and Christine's presence in that world brings her danger, and forces Jake to keep returning to her and protecting her from the blood-thirsty Kai.

It is after much convincing that Jake tells Christine about her past. She is the sole heir to the throne of Reilmore, to govern all three races as the superior Alpha. She became an orphan at an early age of 5, and one day met Jake on the streets, beaten up and hungry to death. She took him in and taking a liking to him became close friends with him. A few years had passed and just as Christine and Jake were beginning their happiness humans discovered the world, and took Christine as a lab rat. They tested her out, since she was the most important creature in the world, and as a result had overdosed her with other DNA which had resulted to her horns and tail. The result scared the scientists which erased it from all records, and trashed the poor girl for her death. It was only thanks to a boy that she was sent to the human world where she would be safe. She didn't remember who he was, only his golden aura and smile. Christine then understands - Jake has loved her, ever since the day he was saved and taken into care to the palace, and she feels like she hurt him by loving Miles.

Jake explains to her the most important fact though - she has to exist in only one world. If she doesn't and continues to be an incomplete being she'll have to wander between both worlds until she is either killed in one of them or her shade shrinks and she'll disappear. Christine continues to travel between the two worlds and understands that those who had hated her before are now beginning to see her differently, and doubt enters her mind. She is no longer sure whether to stay in this world she had once thought of as cruel, or go to the new world where everything she could possibly want will be there.

And it is then that through a twisted tail of events that Christine discovers that Jake's past is a blank page, and that there is a bigger chain connecting Jake and Kai than she had thought. And things begin to get more complicated as Jake's sudden worries and Kai's viciousness begin to unravel, and soon, Christine begins to wonder if things will ever change.

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So, this is the summary of the book before the spoilers and loopholes appear. Maybe this will help me sort things out...

Oh, and the picture above I chose becuase it looks almost exactly the way I pictures Christine to be in her Hybrid Alpha form (however there is no tail and claws on the girl in the picture, and the colour of her eyes and hair differ). Plus, it's a stunning piece too, made by my favourite DeviantART artist, Nefis.

And now I must go continue writing this book.

~M

Playful Days

Day: July 28/10 Eating: cherries

Listening To: Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri

Mood: pumped

Don't let the song choice fool you, it's for a very specific reason that I'm listening to it. The melody is actually very beautiful, to be honest.

The reason I'm pumped is cause today is working out rather well, and I'm still rather happy from yesterday cause I got so much inspiration for my book and got to write quite a lot.

Half Queen is progressing well so far, but I'm only on Chapter 3, not even 15% into the whole story/book, and already I have 31 pages written. I'm no longer sure if writing a lot/detailed is a good thing, cause it's something I always do and I'm not sure if it's a good trait or not.

There is one thing however that just has me baning my head against the wall, and that is some loopholes later on in the story. Yeah, so Christina, the Hybrid Alpha, has to go between the two worlds so she's not killed by Kai, who hates her and wants to kill her, but there are details that I can't sort out.

1) How did she get to the human world?

2) Will Kai turn out to be related to her?

3) Will Jake turn out to be related to her?

4) What happened to her parents? (Well, accoarding to my thoughts right now she was an orphan from an early age but how did her parents die/thing like that?)

5) WHO THE HECK WILL SHE CHOOSE IN THE END!? Miles, in the human world, or Jake, the fantasy world of Reilmore?

Ugh I swear if I don't sort out these details my whole book will have loopholes. Maybe that's what editors are for which then means I'll be needing a good editor later on but I do have to come up with a solid plot. Gah, I curse it when I have such holes in my creativity! *walks up to a wall and smacks her head on it*

If anyone by any chance has any ideas on anything that they had read in books before and stuff, PLEASE LEMME KNOW! I'm dieing here without inspiration! I can't finish a book without fully writing it in my head...TT^TT

*sniffs* Oh well, I'll work on the things I can right now and then probably try sorting those things out when I start coming close to that part in the plot. Maybe that'll work...

~M

Naughty Little Angel

Day: July 26/10 Eating: nothing but I'm getting hungry...XP

Listening To: Dirty Little Secret by The All-American Rejects

Mood: sweet yet devilish

Another slow summer day...Ah I'm getting so fed up in these four walls....Not like I have somewhere better to go though, so I guess I'll put up with this for a while longer.

Went to the library today (woohoo!!! d^-^b) and got myself some more books to read so I can kill some more time. Right now, after about 80 pages into Devoured by Amanda Marrone I'm getting interesting in what kinda turn the story will take (hope not a suckish one or else I'll show no mercy and toss the book across the room).

What else happened...? Well, watched some more TV, played with my little brother a little, you know, usual routines. Couldn't be on at the time peak in the Sanctuary cause I was at the library at the time but oh well - can't get everything you want right?

Which also reminds me - read Full Dark's blog today. Happy that Full Dark and I became friends but still worried for her. Why does everyone piss her off so much? Wish I could help her stick em into place. Beh, I'll have to deal with the same things at school in September - too many bakas in my grade....XP

Events have been unraveling rather quickly, I mean the way Full dark is planning to step down from her rank, how Kirin-chan and I have been feeling lonely now a days...it's all too fast. I'm being sucked into the cyber world, fast, and if I don't pull out soon, I think I'll lose myself in it. It's not normal anymore how I'm replacing it with reality.

Meh why is life so complicated? What I'd give to try living in the cyber world for my whole life, to be carefree and not worry about what people think or say, about this stupid thing called money? Why are things so unfair?

.....................After all these questions, I have a sudden urge to let my frustration out.............Now if you'll excuse me................*jumps on her bed and starts punching her pillows* Stupid stupid world! XP

Calliope: ............Please don't mind Riri-san, she's just having another one of her little......'reality swings'..............

Rowanne: She should really rethink visiting a doctor, hehehe ^^

Whistea: *smacks Rowanne on the head with her scepter* Watch what you say - our mistress is just having a tough time, that's all. And you should learn to be more human and sensitive

Ah, my Shikyus.....I can always count on them. ^^

~M

Story of Evil ~ Cherry Stained

Day: July 25/10

Eating: nothing but I wanna have a cup of tea so badly...TT^TT

Listening To: Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

Mood: concerned, playful and bubbly

Okay, so you must've noticed my new bloggie layout by now. All credits go to my friend nevey for making this amazing layout! I couldn't have made such an amazing blog layout by myself so thank you times a million! ^O^

Ah, it's almost the end of July, and then it's only August and a few days of September before I'm off to school and have to once again work my butt off and dealing with all the hardships of school.

How I hate when I make plans for summer and nothing turns out the way I wanted for it to be.

Actually, I've had a pleasent surprise just a few nights ago when I went shopping and found such an awesome dress that I bought it. Nothing super fancy that I'd wear for grad but I simply love it. It's Lady Pink coloured and I think silk cotton. So soft and stretchy....I wanna wear it to Quebec next year.

Still gotta pick out a grad dress though, and I've got my eyes on one that I think will be perfect. Trying to find it in Toronto and not sure if the American site I found it on will ship to Canada.

Now, the thing that worries me most - my book. Ah, I can't say I didn't do any work on it, I mean I got past a few rough edges I've had with it but I still have a looooooong way to go to finish writing it. I'm currently on page 28 on MicrosoftWord and trying to write at least a little everyday. So far that's not working out a time is slipping out of my hands.

Speaking of time it's been over a month since I joined the Himuro doll family! Yaaay! ^^ *does a little dance* Sadly Mi-chama is on Hiatus because she has a school trip and said she will be gone for half a month or so. It's been almost 3 weeks since she announced it. Can't wait till she gets back, and just kinda saying I hope I can get an elite rank this year, well, at least I'm working towards achieving that goal. Right now though I'm just a happy Puppet of the family.

Kirin-chan has been down lately - fights and emotional stress so I'm trying to help her. But I've been feeling more lonely and can't put the feeling away, and even right now when I'm talking to her the feeling still lingers. It mostly happens when I see two people, two dolls in the Sanctuary, and that feeling arises. It's almost like I'm back in real life and feeling the same way like normally, the feeling I want to escape and one of the reasons why I decided to join the Sanctuary.

Well I'm being all whiney right now, so I think that's all for now. I should go change my act a little right now and stop feeling so down. I've still got more summer ahead and things can always change in the near future. Right now though, I'm not in the best mood because I'm in a way angry with myself.

Yup, this is a story of evil, but it's cherry stained with the emotions of mine that I can't hide. When will this evil quite lurking, if it ever will...?

~M

Poisoned Sugarpuff

Day: Tuesday, July 20/10

Eating: more like choking on cocoa waffers

Listening To: Dance Inside by The All-American Rejects

Mood: indifferent, creative

You think you could get away with things so easily, didn't you? Well lemme guess, you were surprised to find something else coming your way, right? How long were you planning to toy along with me? Be warned - I can be happy and peppy but if you cross my path when I'm in rage or feeling strange, this little sugarpuff will become poisonous, and you don't wanna choke on me, do ya?

Hum, just play your little games somewhere else - stop using me for a target. You say I'm different? How? In what way? That I take your pranks and jokes differently, that I'm more fun to toy with? Bleh I hate people like you....baka baka baka and a million more times baka!

Fufufu, but since you decided to start this, then lets play. I'm good at games, even a champion at some, so this one should be cake. Let's start a game, but this one has no safe spots, no T-Os, so we play endlessly in a closed circle. You ready to see this caterpillar shed it's skin and come out a butterfly? Be warned though - not everything in life's beautiful - most are at the same time deadly, and i'm just dripping with poison...hehehe....

(Sorry for the random post; had to vent all these emotions out but I'll be my normal self very soon once again, PROMISE)

KH Craziness and DS Confusion

Day: Thursday, July 15/10

Eating: nothing at the moment

Listening To: Sanctuary by Utada

Mood: crazed yet relaxed

Okay, so this time around I'll be focusing on two topics - my sudden and strong KH (Kingdom Hearts for those who don't know) addiction and about the confusion I have regarding the dear Doll Sanctuary. Before I start, please let me get this out of my system.......GYA!!!! *runs around the room like crazy* Sorry, I've been feeling unlike myself these past few days and just want this whole feeling gone before I scare someone off. *Takes a deep breath* Okies, now I'm ready to continue on with the rest of the post.

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My KH Craziness:

Okay, now I really don't know why my KH craziness started up (again) but I think I'll blame the fact that I've picked up the only KH game I own (358/2 Days) and started watching all the movies in Theatre Mode and listening to the songs on rewind on YouTube. Ugh, I curse the fact I don't own a PS2 - I soooo wanna play the first two games.....*sulks in the corner*

When I say craziness I mean craziness - the music playing on replay in my mind, the characters jumping around in my mind, making up their own stories, I think I'm official going to go nuts....=.= Then I'm fueled up by the fact that there's gonna be a game on PSP this autumn so I'm all hyped up for that and when I read there's a game on the future NintendoDS 3D and ONLY on it and not the regular DS just makes me burst. It's called KH 3D and it features Sora and Riku and Kairi, the characetrs I haven't experienced play with since I didn't play the first two games. I'm thinking of testing it out on my regular DS to see if it will work when it comes out. Of course if it doesn't, well, I hope I could get my money back....

Mostly I've thought bout Kairi and how much I wanna cosplay her. I think I have what it takes but not sure I'll make a good Kairi version...probably cause of my features...(don't wanna start talking about my face right now)

Uh, I curse my random addictions when I have them, but the KH addiction is long and periodic, so we'll see how long it lasts. I hope not for long cause my mom will start asking questions about why I'm like this.

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Sanctuary Confusion:

So for this one I don't blame anyone, just my brain that can be so messed up at times. The main reason for my confusion though is Full Dark and Loki-kun's fight. I'm not pointing to sides but just hope this whole thing gets sorted through. I mean I understand Full Dark and her position, I wouldn't question her, and Loki is very determined about this and has a right for his thoughts but it's just not right. Especially after reading Full Dark's blog post from today how she's saying she is now the former Full Dark Jester makes me feel so....distraight...for the lack of a simpler word. I wish she'd stay, I honestly wish she would. But everyone's entitled to their opinion so I gotta accept that and not be like some little child that grabs on to her friends and doesn't let them go.

Don't know who started this fight, don't know who'll end it, don't even know what it's about. Everyone's telling Loki to not quit and for Full Dark to not stress out and ignore this (at least from what I've read) If Full Dark quits, the Himuro family loses one of it's important and gotta say one of the greatest dolls I know. Call me weird, softie or whatever, but this is what I think. She has all the right in the world.

And on a side note Mi-chama is on vacation...for half a month...gonna miss her. Kyrie-san is now in charge of the family for the time along with G-sama and Angel-sama. Hope I don't cause them trouble...^^"

I think I'll go feed my addiction some more right now. There's nothing more for me to say anyways. *hops around the room and acts like an idiot* Oh, don't mind me, I'm done with my post. Go on, go do something else, there's nothing more for you to read. *grabs a popsicle* You're still reading aren't you...? Ah, nothing more to do, or just curious if I'll pull off a trick...? *walks off* I told you I was done with my post. XP

~M

Aphrodite's Garden (Random Short Story)

Day: July 8/10 Eating: slice of cherry cheesecake
Listening To: nothing at the moment

Mood: lightheaded, dreamy, inspired

Since I am feeling a bit off right now and I haven't posted in a while, I decided to post an entry but because I have nothing to talk about I want to write this short story here, as I am in a very creative and lightheaded mood. Hope you don't mind and enjoy this story of mine.

Oh, and by the way, the Greek gods in this story at at a teenage age, so picture them young and beautiful/hot, if you can, for example Aphrodite to the right - she is at a teenage ae. This is because when I think of Greek gods I imagine them always young between the ages of 15 and 19.

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Of all the places said to exist in the world of the gods, Aphrodite's garden was said to be the most beautiful. There were huge trees unlike any of those that existed down on earth, big ponds with pink lotus blooming in its waters, and all kinds of birds and animals lived there. it was a garden only Aphrodite could come to, and not even Demeter or Persephony could understand how she had managed to keep such a beautiful garden all to herself. Aphrodite was not the goddess of flowers and gardens after all, so they were very curious about how she had managed to create such a garden.

But that did not trouble Aphrodite. This was her hideaway, the one place where none of the other gods or goddesses could enter, her peaceful little garden sanctuary. But even though no one knew where it was or had ever seen it didn't mean that word didn't go out about it. It was rumoured amongst the mortals that this was a garden specially grow for lovers, that Aphrodite's power of love blossomed in every flower and that even if couples were argueing once they smelled the flowers from her garden all of their troubles and fights would be forgotten as if they never were. That's why many mortals had gone out to look for the garden, but no one had ever found it.

It was one day that Aries had stormed into Mount Olympus, all angry over losing another war. It pained Venus to see her beloved Aries so angered, so she asked for him to come to her garden, where she hoped he'd feel better. Aries of course was very lightheaded and didn't understand right away what Aphrodite had wanted from this, but still agreed to go with her.

The garden was silent just like always, with no one around to disrupt them.There was never anyone there though, as none of the gods could find it. Aphrodite led Aries to a bench, where he sat quietly until in a few moments he began storming about something.

"Why, I could have won that war with my eyes closed!" Aries yelled. "Everyone knows that war is my game, not some king's who wishes to beat me at it. It isn't even possible!" Aphrodite smiled. Aries never changed, and that was why she loved him so much.

"Aries, do you know what kind of garden this is...?" she suddenly asked, catching Aries by suprise. All of a sudden he quieted down and thought. He hadn't even noticed how Aphrodite had led him here. What was this place? Was it Demeter's garden? It wasn't possible for anyone other than Persephony and Demeter to have such a garden

"It is my garden," Aphrodite whispered at last, her voice not that much above a whisper. "it is the only one of its kind to ever exist. Do you see all this coral and lotus flowers blooming? Demeter could never plant these herself, and Persephony, though so young, talented and ambituous she only dreams of this kind of success," Aphrodite went on, turning Aries' head towards her and looking deep into his chestnut eyes. "This garden has a calming affect on anyone who comes into it. Please, stay here alwas Aries - that way, you will never have to worry about losing another war..."

Aries thought a bit, but saying nothing smiled. It seemed like all the aquatic plants really did have an effect on him, a calming effect no one other than Aphrodite could have on him. There truly was no other place than Aphrodite's garden.

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There go around rumours

of a garden out thre

where your anger melts

and you feel without care.

Many dream to come here

and see with their eyes

the pond with lotus

in the lost paradise.

In songs and in poems

it is told of this place

and its enchanting owner

hidden without trace.

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Yeah, another really really REALLY random story. I had this inspiration to write this all of a sudden. You might ask - what's the point of this story? Well, not much really, just that Aphrodite has a garden that is said to calm down anyone, espcially fighting lovers, like in this case Aries (though he wasn't fighting with Aphrodite). There will be more stories to follow but I kinda wanted to write this one first. I've been rather tied to greek mythology since I was a kid and I still have a strong fascination about it.

Oh, what am I babbling about!? Well, off to write another story for the Sanctuary!

~M